It's over.

A few minutes after I finished that post, I couldn't stand it and I stood outside of your doorway, balling, unsure about what to do. Finally, I decided to just give you your pacifier and the next time maybe I won't. So I came in, rubbed your head and we were both staring at each other crying. Then, I put the chompie in your mouth and you fell asleep. Right before you drifted off, you looked at me sadly, about to cry again, and my heart broke all over. This is the hardest thing for me ever. I want to give you anything you want.