Robots and Memories

Emmett is out with Ana, there are pictures all over the dining room table and I am taking a break. There is so much going on and I need to start to write it down.

MY JOB has gotten great, awesome and horrible. As I posted before, I was made the Creative Director and am being pulled in like a partner. At the same time, I'm able to work the hours I want and spend most of the week with Emmett. It's (conceptually) been wonderful...until last week. My "thousands of dollars" paycheck was late and he seemed to avoid the subject. With no tolerance for late payments, I told him I wouldn't work passed WEdnesday unless I received the check. He sent nothing. It's Monday and the Fed Ex is on it's way, but he sent it 3-Day furthering my suspicions. In response, I have stopped working all together adn will not talk to him until the checks clear. I am being extremely hard-assed about this and feel insecure about my behavior. I am thankful for the job but am jaded in terms of freelance trust. He is sending the contract back in the same Fed Ex, sealing me in with the company. I don't know what I'm doing and think I may quit again.

OUR LIVES We have been looking at apartments in Bella Vista and found one that we like, but something seems wrong and neither of us can figure out what it is. We want to move in there, but there is a bad taste and we don't know why. In the meantime, we put in an application on a house, but we're worried about the stairs and Emmett. One of the things I liked best aobut the house was that there is a playground down the street -- a baby kind of playground. That sealed it for me. But when we were driving passed it last week, the entire playgound was ripped up.

In the meantime, I'm still missing LA. Jessica called me yesterday and left this message: "Hey. Do you think there's anyway we can get all our friends to move out to LA so we can move back? Is there any chance?"
Is there?

MY ALBUMS The last photo album I did was when I was in Philly and I am about 7 behind. I still haven't picked our wedding pictures. We have about 30 roles of Emmett as an infant. This is my burden. I will make myself do this. I'm not actually enjoying it becuase there are so many to sort through. I'm also not enjoying it, becuase I miss the old days. I wish I could not be so nostaligic.

I wish (I REALLY WISH) I could erase certain memories and information. This weekend, I heard two stories of animal creulty that I can't forget. The Teri Shivo story is hard for me. There was another New York news story I heard that I can't get passed. I want to select memories like I select pictures. Since I had a baby, I have become so sensitive that I can't handle the harsh reality of mankind.

MY PARENTS At last, there is peace.

OUR FUTURE As you all know, Mke and I feel that are jobs are simply a way to make money. We don't care about our careers in advertising. We want to open a business. This weekend, we met this guy that has the same interest in starting a company and paying overseas people a living wage. We told him about our clothing line idea and the guy was totally into it. He's going back to China in 4 months and told us he plans to incorporate this week.

I stopped counting on anything a long time ago, but it would be cool if it worked out. In the meantime, this weekend is a retreat for a bunch of us to figure out and work on a project (to be revealed later).

THE MOVIE We have been getting orders for it and even some distribution interest, but I realized I don't even care. I just want people to watch it. With that in mind, I'm going to GIVE AWAY copies to anyone who promises to show it to at least 3 groups of people and promote it a little bit. This goes for anyone. Just write me an email and I'll send you a copy.

MY BABY I adore and love him more and more every day. And I love how much he loves me. I got some pictures of him from Sears but I'm not totally happy with them. He's cuter in real life I think. I can't believe how lucky I am to have a baby like him. I wish I could plan getting pregnant again with someone, but I feel like no one I know is anywhere near ready to get pregnant. Truthfuly, I don't really want another baby. I LOVE this...just Emmett Mike and me. But we're going to have to do it eventually. Colin... How is it being an only child?

MY DIET> For lent, the Orthodox faith observes 7 weeks of a strict Vegan fast. A fast that also excludes olive oil and alcohol (except on the weekends. I don't think I've ever exerted more discipline in my life.

MY FEELINGS I feel caged. My mind is racing faster than I can go. Emmett in some ways frees me -- but I'm keenly aware of the value of time these days. And I hear Emmett and Ana are back. I have to go.


I AM SORRY THIS IS RAMBLING, RIDDLED WITH SPELLING ERRORS, AND NOT EVEN PROOFED. MORE THOUGHT-PROVOKING POSTS COMING SOON.

this is the coolest blog I've ever seen.

http://postsecret.blogspot.com/#111185748571395951

Read that. You will not be disapointed.

Watching Cinderella

with Emmett and my parents and I really LOVe this story so much. I love the part when the mice put together the dress.

Why isn't Cinderlla a normal name? It's not that bad especially compared to names today. I will write more later. They're waltzing.

This is my "real" book. 

This is MUCH MUCH better. I changed one answer and this came out. I would have to say that this is much more representative about the way that I feel.

You're Catch-22!

by Joseph Heller

Incredibly witty and funny, you have a taste for irony in all that you
see. It seems that life has put you in perpetually untenable situations, and your sense
of humor is all that gets you through them. These experiences have also made you an
ardent pacifist, though you present your message with tongue sewn into cheek. You
could coin a phrase that replaces the word "paradox" for millions of
people.


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Posted by: Elisabeth / 11:33 AM

Results of quiz. 

The reults of my quiz

Results of quiz. 

Stacey posted a quiz today on her
blog today. I took it and here are my results. I'm not sure I like my results and want to retake the quiz.

You're A Theory of Justice!

by John Rawls

In the beginning, you lived in a town. The town had many problems!
Rather than moving, you decided to come up with the idea for the best town ever. Going
all the way back to the original position, you created the idea for the best town ever!
Lo and behold, the best town ever looked almost identical to the town you lived in. You
decided to stay in the town.
rounds.


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Posted by: Elisabeth / 11:27 AM

New Blog to read

chriess.blogspot.com

That is Chris' new blog. I warn you. She's starting off slow.

Psychology Today Magazine is FREE.

Colin, my dad, Jessica and I get it free becuase of this link.

http://a388.g.akamai.net/7/388/1603/0001/www.freebizmag.com/emailpt03welcome.htm

Blogs I read.

trippygood.blogspot.com
droxdross.blogspot.com
faithhairgirl.blogspot.com
closer-to-fine.blogspot.com

Chris...Colin...Audrey
What's the deal.

Here's how you set up a blog:
1. Go to www.blogger.com
2. Click on "Create a Blog"
3. Choose a name for your blog (i.e. audrooski.blogspot.com)
4. Choose a design for your blog
5. "Start Posting"

To edit your blog:
Go to www.blogger.com and type in the name of your blog (i.e. audrooski.blogspot.com)

Results of quiz.

Stacey posted a quiz today on her
blog today. I took it and here are my results. I'm not sure I like my results and want to retake the quiz.

You're A Theory of Justice!

by John Rawls

In the beginning, you lived in a town. The town had many problems!
Rather than moving, you decided to come up with the idea for the best town ever. Going
all the way back to the original position, you created the idea for the best town ever!
Lo and behold, the best town ever looked almost identical to the town you lived in. You
decided to stay in the town.
rounds.


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Posted by: Elisabeth / 11:27 AM

"The Surprise Adventure Tour"

That was the first official Fun Club activity and it happened this weekend.

In a nutshell, we told our friends to bring $100 and an overnight bag. We told them not to ask questions and to meet at Colins.

We pulled up in a minivan bearing signs that said "Surprise Adventure Tours" and went on our way. Below are 15 memories from what turned out to be an incredibly fun, funny, and deeply bonding trip.

Please post more if you have them. I'll attach them onto the blog entry.

15 Memories from this weekend.

1. Medevil Times. Even though we KNEW it was staged, we cheered like we were at an Eagles Superbowl, edging on our "Knight" who was looking at us like we were trekkies and he was a cast member from the show that thought we were pathetic. Ana's randomly strange and funny comments. Jessica's over the top cheering. The three of us cheering unbelievably loud.

2. Drinking 2 bottles of wine in a hotel room in the Hilton. Hiding cash underneath the TV. Chris pointing out that the furniture was ugly,then admitting that she felt like we hurt the furniture's feelings by saying that.

3. A spontaneous song that erupted on our way out of the hotel entitled "Let's blow this joint" which Dave has decided will be a song in his band. Us all packing into the elevator and signing the song together. Then, Colin deciding to climb a tree as I threw snowballs at him.

4. The van. 9 people -- 9 adults fitting into a minivan designed for 7. Us driving that way to New York and back and then fitting 10 in to the van for a brief ride through the Lower East Side.

5. Tunnel Dancathon. Us driving through the Lincoln tunnel and sponatenously dancing with some black girls in the car next to us. They were jamming out to something and we all just started dancing wiht them. Then, we rolled up the window and decided we should put on some music -- 80's slow songs, and we ended up singing them loudly.

6. The Remote lounge (http://www.remotelounge.com) in all it's glory. Dave in the Remote Lounge, talking to Lou Lou and showing her his tattoo. Evesdropping, spying, listening in, watching ourselves and how incredibly uncomfortable Chris and Faith were the entire time.

7. Spontaneous Square Dance.All of us spontaneously square-dancing outide of some random building in the lower east side in front of this group of good-looking, model-like men wearing large white cowboy hats. Dave singing "Skip to my lou" in a drunken Tom Waits kind of way...and the cowboys getting into a LIMO and driving off.

8. The MilkBar, based on Clockwork Orange, and having some bonding time with Chris. Looking over and realizing the place was supposed to be for punk rockers. Seeing mostly my friends including Ana and Kyle, lounging back watching "The Secretary".

9. Getting pizza at 4 in the morning. It hit the spot. It was so good.

10. Trip back to NJMe falling asleep in the back while everyone else tried to keep Mike awake for the drive home. It was the longest drive in the world and we got lost. Mike ran into a Holiday Inn to ask where the Hilton was. Kyle declared "Some men would just keep driving". I remember being very cold becuase someone suggested opening the window. Faith calling her husband...him getting mad..It was like 4 in the morning.

11. Blood on Bed Waking up and being disgusted by the fact that my non-fitted sheet rode down and I was sleeping on teh bare mattress all night. Looking down at the mattress and realizing there was BLOOD on it and that I had been sleeping in the dried stain thorughout the night. Kyle escorted me to the front desk and proclaimed "Excuse me Madam, but certainly you must be able to provide a voucher or something. If I wanted to sleep in blood, I could rent a room in the Super 8 on the strip. I could find a hooker hotel and sleep in blood there if I wanted."

12. Bonding with Dave Waking up early with Dave, going to Dunkin Donuts and bonding, then getting seriously lost on teh way back. Asking 2 people directions and getting the same bad directions from both. Dave prayed outloud quickly, we pulled over to ask this woman, and she informed us that she lived ON First STreet and told us to go straight and make a left. Dave calling it "cool that God did that so aesthically".

13. Ugly diner for Sunday brunch Waiting 1/2 hour to be seated at a "5-minute wait" diner. The hostess kissing Mike's hand when he asked about it and saying "If you'd made reservations, we may have been able to seat you sooner my dear". Sitting this diner on a Sunday morning, Kyle ordering a Bloody Mary, dealing with a kind of mean old waiter. Then, talking about band names for Ana, COLIN'S & Dave's band and Kyle proclaiming "Kickstand" to which we all screamed with joy. Me taping Dave as he called Anthony who informed us that the name is already in use by another band.

14. Cake That same diner, waiting until the candles on the cake Jessica made for me nearly burned the frosting, so that Dave could " video" the event (which he ended up missing). Receiveing presents from Jessica (journal, mix CD's, Vegetarian cookbook), Chris (1 year People mag), Faith (potpurri)

15. Colin's Smoothie Colin, at a Rest Stop, proclaiming that he wanted to buy me a Smoothie and commanding that I get a "Large" and that I get "Anything I wanted! That it was on him". I don't think I ever enjoyed a Smoothie more than that one.

Other Memories

Chris Dotto: " ELisabeth threatening to hang up on me if I asked another question before the trip."

Big changes

I accepted a job with my client (A D V A N T I M E D I A) I didn't want to write it so that anyone can search for it and find my blog. Keep in mind, Emmett's nap =11:30-3:00 everyday.

My hours are:
M: 12-5
T: 12-5, 9-11
W: OFF
H: 9-5
F: OFF

He granted me the $ I asked for. He told me that I was the only one in his company that he could trust. So far, it's working. I am loving this.

I will write more later. I need to get back to my little family.